General statement: While under the influence of drugs and alcohol, my behavior is so impossible to predict, it is unbelievable. I don't know where to begin. Anyone who has known me for so much as a couple of months - shit, even the police officers who arrested me this month can tell you that I’ve got to be the craziest motherfucker they've ever laid eyes on.

Alcohol: I think I was eight years old when I was introduced to the family tradition

 
Steve-O's famous backtat - a tribute to errr...himself. 

of children partaking in an alcoholic beverage of their choice - just one, only on New Year’s Eve, each year.

I think it was right away that I knew I wasn’t interested in beer, rather that I wanted Scotch whiskey. I can’t really remember - after all, what alcoholic remembers the first drink they picked up?

The first time I vomited from truly drinking "too much" alcohol," I was 12 years old, that I'm quite sure of.

I'm also quite sure that everything I remember taking interest in from childhood and onwards I poured myself into with an unhealthy 'excessive/compulsive' attitude about it. Baseball. Heavy metal music. Skateboarding. Drinking. Drugs. Oh yeah, and the video camera...

Marijuana and LSD: I didn't first try marijuana - it was actually hash the first time - because I randomly bumped into it. I tried it because I had made a decision to find it. I tried it again the day after that, as I recall, and, I believe the next day as well. Overnight, when I had just turned 16 years old, I became a "stoner/druggie." Shortly thereafter, I was taking LSD on a regular basis. It was my prerogative to try just about any drug I could get my hands on.

Methamphetamines: [I] can't say that I’ve not accepted [speed] on numerous occasions - especially in pill form - [but] I’ve never purchased them (correction: bought the pills once) or sought them out when I wasn’t aware of their immediate presence.

Cocaine and crack: I've never smoked crack before [despite the fictitious rap song I wrote about smoking crack], but powder cocaine is an entirely different story. I have been aware of significant problems that snorting powder cocaine has caused in my life for many years now, and on numerous occasions made efforts to give up the habit, with varied success. The longest I was able to abstain was one year and six days, the second longest was roughly six months - you get the idea.

Nitrous oxide: [It's] the drug I "fiend" for, by far, the most. I used to inhale this gas by the cartridge, specifically by the case [a case containing 600 cartridges]. I would call a taxi to come bring me to pick up a case and be searching under my mattress for cartridges while awaiting its arrival. When it did arrive, I would bring my cartridge dispenser in the taxi and be dispensing the gas into my lungs for the entire ride home from the pick-up... I had to give up the nitrous oxide, and did, six months ago. 

Ketamine (Special K): Another drug that... I had not-at-all-subtle experiences on. Enough said.

A goodbye letter to my drugs of choice: At this point, all you fucking things are good for is dying. I’m not ready to die. I’m ready to live. I’m ready to breathe (properly, even). I’m ready to fall in love. I’m ready to become ready to start a family. I’m ready to be happy, fulfilled and meaningful. Maybe I’ll see you fuckers if and/or when I’m ready to die.

It’s time for me to "hang up my hat," to "throw in the towel"... for me to "call it quits."

CelebStoner Comment:
According to Steve-O's MySpace blog, the source of the breakdown that landed him in Cedars-Sinai's psych ward was an eviction notice from his apartment in West Hollywood. Watching the numerous video clips on the blog, it's clear that Steve-O was in a manic bipolar state dating back to Feb. 29 when he started trashing the apartment.  

Steve-O "interacts" with the neighbours

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